One of the things which I have noticed about today's world is that the idea of men "being in love" has fallen by the wayside. From my perspective it is human nature to love and to "be in love," that heady, dreamy place where all that you can think about is your beloved. For our Western world, men in love has Biblical roots, for in the 1st Book of Samuel is the story of David and Jonathan; it is said in a number of places that "Jonathan loved David as he loved his own soul." And this is exactly what it sounds like. Perhaps the difference is in this, that while there are any number of men who have effeminate qualities, in general two men in love with each other are only that, or just that - two men. One may indeed be what today is called an "alpha" male, that is, dominant, but nevertheless his partner is just as much a man. I mean this in the sense of, quite capable of masculine aggression. I'm sure that in today's world, there are any number of sorrowful homophobes who have found to their regret that to attack someone who favors their own sex can result in a thoroughgoing punch to the face.

There is of course a measure of "reverse discrimination," where gay men hold straight men in disdain for their attraction to women. This is pure bigotry, and is as evil as any form of homophobia. While for the most of my existence I have found myself drawn to other men, it was not so long ago that I was totally attracted to, and had a brief intense relationship with a woman; there is a post I made about this. It was a wonderful and enlightening experience and today I would gladly admit that it made my world so much larger and grander. For the homophobes of the world, I must only shake my head in sorrow for your ignorance.

I'm writing on my own and for myself here in a long time. I've not been quiescent the way some of the other spirits here at Outlands are, I've been busy. I've slipped unnoticed into bars and parties, into the lives of modern gay men. There has been one change since I was alive. (If you are new to this blog, I am the spirit of a Prussian soldier who died in 1806. Take it or leave it) The change has to do with the widespread practice (if one could call it that of "bottom/top" anal sex. I'm not thrilled with what I've seen. I'm kind of horrified.

When I was alive I grew up in a military academy, these years are documented in much earlier entries to my blog. Perhaps I was being naive, but in the academy, and later as a soldier on active war-time duty, a few men would have anal sex, but they were rare. More often than not we would engage in mutual masturbation (what a confounding, silly description) or less often, sucking. Those who did have anal sex were careful in what they did. What I have seen today is not so careful, especially on the part of the "top." Really, such a one is this side of raping his partner, with minimal use of lubricant, maximum use of force to make sure he gets into his lover and very little tenderness, if any. And the "bottoms" who submit themselves to such men are really crying out to be punished, that's what it seems like to me. Punished for desiring someone of your own sex, now what more could be in the interests of the churches?

Eh, maybe you would acuse me of wanting to turn back the hours, turn them back until the years where I lived. I don't know that that matters. But I would describe a romantic evening, such as an evening might go. A couple would embrace, perhaps kiss if alone. Time was spent in conversation, the a meal together. If the desire was there we would retire to the bed and kiss and caress esch other. If we did not use our hands on each other, we would use our lips. It was a very passionate time for both. Those are the kind of relation-ships which I can understand. I cannot understand why a man would want to injure another in his ass, or be injured, when there is so much information abroad about anal sex. It may be a different world, and I may be too far displaced from it, but at heart I cannot endorse this cruel form of sexual domination.

So at last I have come back here, I wanted so much since we've recovered to make an entry, but it is something new for me - I have fallen in love with a woman. I have never felt this way about someone of the opposite sex before. I know that I've evoked strong desires in women over the years, but I finally had it given back to me in a double dose! And my reaction? Ha-ha!, let it come DOWN!

What if?

A guest entry by Roy.

What if you woke up one morning and you were the other gender?
What if you found a million dollars on the side of the road?
What if you found yourself inexplicably in another country?
What if someone came up to you and acted like they'd known you all of your life but you had absolutely no clue as to who they are?
What if the countries of the world decided to end war and feed the poor?
What if there were no more oil tomorrow?
What if you found yourself with three children that you did not have yesterday?
What if someone started making fun of you in front of other people?
What if you found you could never get enough Stuff?
What if no-one sold or used crack any more?
What if parents stopped slapping, beating and raping their children?
What if the media started telling the truth about everything going on?
What if the kids in your school were kind to each other?
What if your ministers, imams, rabbis, gurus and priests said "I don't know?"
What if the Devil and Jesus appeared together on TV like good buddies?
What if the Pope asked the Dalai Lama to marry him?
What if the Dalai Lama did?
What if the UN decided they'd enough of the USA's imperialism and took over?
What if alcoholics found themselves free of their chains?
What if everyone on the planet shared what they have with each other?
What if we all decided to take off for the day?
What if every bully on the planet stepped in a dog turd and didn't know it?
What if a cancer cure was announced today?
What if everyone suddenly had a great sense of humor?
What if the guys in the saucers landed and went on worldwide TV?

What if you think about this stuff for a little while and humor an old man who thinks of things like this constantly? What if it expands your imagination and your sense of humor? What if you find out that this is EXACTLY how to transform your life and your world for the better?

Imagine! John Lennon did. And he asked me to post this at our various places on the Interent - yeah, he stopped by for a short visit and I channeled him.

Jeezo - what if I'm not kidding?

Well, I'm back and I've brought everyone with me! Perry, Roland, Wanda Wonder, Elling Parter and even Yvgeny Porchik will be making entries in the future! Enjoy!

Terrence Ausweiler

(Terrence writing)

I've not been here for a while! All of us at The Outlands Commnity have been very busy working on our website, and Roy has also created a second website which is exclusively devoted to recording Paterson "as it is," in photgraphs he started taking in January this year; as of today there are over 100 pictures, and if you would like to take a look, go to:

http://hotfemboysrock.mosaicglobe.com

and, sorry to spoil the fun of the guys at alt malicious, there is no child pornography there either. I still do not understand how they confused me with a pedophile site, but after reading their entries I've come to the conclusion that while they may be good at "hacking" they're pretty narrow-minded and stupid.

We've made headway in finding physics and physicists who allow that there are other dimensions indeed, we are studying material written by Professor Fred Alan Wolf, in particular his one book Parallel Universes. He starts with a very basic overview of Newtonian physics - which was still being accepted when I was in the flesh - and goes through the nineteenth century, past Einstein and up to today's bizarre eleven-dimensional string theory. Along the way he takes a few - more than a few - shots at Neils Bohr's notions, but I understand that is the way with academics, especially if they have solid reasons for finding fault with accepted teachings and are either ignored or rudely dismissed. The same happens in psychology as I have come to understand it, that those who followed Sigmund Freud after 1895 opened up a whole can of worms that you might call the "materialist / reductionist" view. Or heresy.

A soldier's duty does not end with death. Neither does his sense of honor, what is right. I am from a time and a culture in which one's personal honor was everything: assail the standing or integrity of someone and things usually ended in a duel. I am caught between my upbringing and what was drilled deeply into me at the academy on the one hand and the present-day reality.

If you at all have read my blog you are aware that I was slandered by a group of people who decided that I was, in their language, a 'pedo.' A pedophile. In this environment of the Internet, words loose their meaning and become twisted by the evil, the nefarious and malcontents who have access. The word was used as an insult, at least as an epithet by persons who know me not. It is not two hundred years ago; but two hundred years ago these scoundrels would have faced me with sword or pistol.

In my rage I demanded to be heard in a full meeting of the Outlands Community. I was. It was not right, I said, that I be besmirched by persons who have no business deciding who or what others are. To be insulted by persons of narrow sick minds and with no sense whatsoever of honor. I was really angry. I had announced my intent of literally getting into cyberspeace and tracking these vile ghouls to their IPs. I was advised and cajoled aginst this. You might get deleted. I did not care. You will be facing great and unknown dangers. I did not care; I am a soldier and was a spy; I am used to such and in practical term it was how I died.

It was Llam who allowed me to rant and spew forth my rage until I had quieted. He said to me, "Terrence, you will be acting like them. Do you wish to be in the same category as these vermin?" I could not answer that. He went on, this time with a smile: "Do you not recall the great lesson of Vlad Dragool as he was represented by Abraham Stoker? 'Time is on my side!,' he exclaimed. Terrence, time is on our side. You yourself, the members of the Community do not go about raping young children or luring them into carnal destruction. The media-generated idea that labels all enemies of the status quo as criminals and mentally deranged persons is crumbling along with the whole edifice. You can see that in the growing discontent in many quarters, some quite conservative otherwise, with the war in the land of Iraq. Those who chose to identify and take their stand with the imperialist designs of the current oligarchy will be literally going down with their ship." By now I was listening to at least every other word. Continuing, he added "You came from a military academy, and were a soldier in one of the finest and well-disciplined armies the world has ever seen. You are one of the few members of the Outlands Community who values and practices discipline as an enjoyed virtue. As in days gone by you reverenced your teachers of these things, it is your turn to pass on what you know to those who need it most." With those words he swayed me, as laughter filled us all, that he would so impute to even our most prominent members a lack of discipline and in need thereof! Helpless before the quiet humor of our Steward I broke down laughing myself.

So I have voluntarily decided to let the matter lie. While it would for a short space make me feel good to avenge an honor wrongfully stained in the long run, the feeling would fade like water in a desert, and the disease would merely spring up elsewhere. It is better, I conclude, that I do my job, as a good soldier - now and here as a member of the world that we are daily creating. In hoc signo vici.